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I'm having an affair.
No he isn't married nor
is he under aged.
HA!...don't even think about it
No he isn't my sister's boyfriend nor
my friend's boyfriend.
So who then?
Well he isn't a he
but he is a she. (Ying...sorry)
See this person..she is beautiful inside and out.
Her words are like honey
and her moves are like those of a Goddess.
I remember when I first meant her.
Her smile, kind and sweet.
She blesses my presences,
with style and grace.
Many wonder what I see in her
and many see what I see in her.
I am having a secret love affair.
I wonder if her man knew..
If he would mind?
Would he understand?
Would he look at me and smile
just because he understands what I see in her?
Her voice is like gold
Her drive is like....well what can be said.
I got to experience her gift
and understand why she calls herself Sasha. I am having an affair with she
I am having an affair with herI am having an affair with.....
Lol....you can exhale Ying.~Yang~
So I am afraid.
I say it again....
I AM AFRAID.
I am afraid of my past mistakes. Though they were mistakes from the past, they haunt me like recurring nightmares.
I am afraid of trusting. Their have been those I trusted who in turn showed me trust isn't something you just give.
I am afraid of falling. Once upon a time I fell for a man. He took everything I had and left me with nothing. He took my pride and gave me shame. He took my joy and gave me pain.
I am afraid of life changing accidents. Laying in a bed not knowing who I am. Going from being independent to being dependent.
I am afraid of dying an old maid. I too want to say I do one day. Have that house in a nice community. A wonderful husband who teaches me the meaning of love. A healthy little girl that has her mother's eyes and her father's smile. Healthy little boys that love their mama so.
I am afraid of my fears. To fear so much is to fail in the biggest way possible. My fears are my weaknesses and not my strenght. My fears are my fears.
My fears are my curse.
~Yang
